Believing is Believing

I was reading through my Bible this morning and started reading some of the things that I had written on the inside cover when I was waaaaaaayyyyyy back in college...1993. I had some quotes that seemed important to me at the time, and some of them have become cliche, but one really stuck out to me this morning.

"You don't really believe something until it shows up in your life."

Wow.

I had to stop for a minute. God really used that in my heart this morning. It stung me. To see the truth in that, I had to rethink some things.

I believe in being healthy. I believe it in every way. I am so cautious about what my kids eat, what we bring into our home, when they eat, and how much. I force them outside because I don't want them to be plugged in, tuned out and zoned all day long. I want them to see the beauty and necessity of excersize and fresh air. I believe that I am training them to live a life that will set them up for a successful, healthy future.

...but deep down inside, I believed that it was too late for me.

My blogger friends...that was a serious revelation for me. It literally smacked me in my face. It has never shown up in my life because I never believed that I had the power to overcome my weaknesses in that area of my life.

What a lie.

What a lie to believe in for so many years.

The time I have wasted! believing that I am powerless to overcome my weakness.

The Irony. Irony, because I believed the lie. And in believing the lie, I lived it. I gave in to it. I fed it. I protected it. I nurtured it and wallowed in it. I explained to myself why being overweight was not completely my fault...and believed in it.

Believing was Believing.

New Perspective.

I believe that I AM a healthy eater. I believe that the excersize will form muscle that can and WILL emerge from under all of my past beliefs that cling to my unbelieving body. And as that change emerges a healthier and new physical me will emerge with it, transforming my outward appearance as my inner beliefs start to shine through.

I believe that God's Best for me is just below the surface, but I can still live for it every day, until it shines all around and through me.